I'm having a hard day. Woke up grumpy after staying up too late the night before with friends. Wishing I could help my sister out as she is still struggling with her health, but she is in Idaho so not much I can do for her. Spent the day moping around after finding out my sister-in-law had her baby. All is well, baby is healthy, thank goodness, but I'll be in a slump for a while now, it's just the way things are.
So bad day, made better by J's suggestion of a cheeseburger for dinner. And then, BAM, the sky fell. Sweet Emily is 17 weeks pregnant with her rainbow and her water broke. What the (insert word of your choice here)?!
I believe in God, in his goodness, grace, and kindness, but right now I just don't understand Him or His role in any of this. Honestly, I'm rather upset with Him at the moment. Emily lost a baby, she lost her Aidan, she needs to keep her Acorn. Last week my friend Annette lost her Little Bee. She needed to keep her baby too. Isn't once enough?
I don't understand why parents who have lost babies don't receive a free pass the second time around. I don't understand any of this.
Words fail me.
Drop over and give Emily some love. She is on bed rest and needs our love and support right now.
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5 comments:
I saw Emily's post earlier and am so sad. I agree that we should receive a free pass after our first loss. I just feel sick for what she is going through. We already knew that life wasn't fair, but honestly, this is ridiculous.
Ugh, these are my worst fears. The poor girl has been through more than enough. Dear God: Enough already.
Unfair it is! God knows our hearts and therefor our pain. Though he does not make these things happen, He never leaves our side to help us pick up the pieces. I struggle with this as well. Praying to Him and telling Him how I feel helps me find clarity and some comfort (sometimes).
Love and comfort,
Sadie
Emily's blog is perhaps not somewhere I would be welcome, given I have several children and I know that hurts her. But please let her know that my sister had that happen at 17 weeks too and that little girl is now 6 years old. It was tough and it was scary but she made it.
I will never understand either! :'( It is just so unfair.
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